Another one of my lake escapes
On a brand new sunny day
All alone but anyway
I sometimes travel out that way.

The countryside is lovely
The crowds are not too loud
The horsetails are above me
While I am in a cloud.

I run out here to clear my head
It doesn't always work
Pondering over what we've said
Fresh air another perk.

I hope this breaks wide open
Not meaning nearby dam
At least I do keep hopin'
'Cause that's the way I am.

Nobody can blame me
For wanting to see clear
Many would have doubts expressed
and "Guard your heart, my dear".

As voices conflict in my head
I run to where the water lies
To quiet my stirred soul again
And all my thoughts likewise.

So as I peruse the boats,
The people and their pets
I search for the antidote
To all that makes me fret.

4-14-2024 
by Sagefairy

Justification

Everyone has reasons
For doing what they do
I've thought about the causes
And listed here a few.

Survival is an often guide
To put one on one's way
Passion is another side
To make or break the day.

Some are guided by their fear
Especially those with no belief
Many struggle off and on
To never find relief.

Some are guided by their hope
Of better things to come
Like sharing with another
Each and every crumb.

The mysteries of another's mind
Not easy to discern.
It's often colored by the past
And hurts that still do burn.

So it is we fool ourselves
That we are in control
There are those who seem to be,
And those who won't unroll.

I am not one to suggest
That anyone should change.
I cannot deny I'm blessed
In any free exchange.

Yet I am not as I would choose
If given half a chance,
But half is less than I often get
In such games as romance.

Thus it is I stand alone
Still, eternally -
Awaiting still a dream of two
While that may never be.

A wish that lacks such substance
That I may be a fool.
Though pestered with reluctance
I still dive in the pool.

Anticipating shivered pain
Of water that is cold
I name my motivation
Before I am paroled.

Which is, to wit, the sharing
Of all that might be true;
Desire and the caring
That out of time, we knew.

4-14-2024 
by Sagefairy

Camoflaged

The fog has settled in my soul
Where I can't see the path,
All I can do is write what's true
And try to do the math

Of what is real and what is not
To hold to what I know
It seems too easy I'm forgot
Or drenched in buried snow.

I see this as a trying time
As I've been here before
Nights are long and never prime
When fog hides what's in store.

I know what lurks inside my head,
And what my end will be,
But in between is much obscured
Uncertainness I flee.

Perhaps this is just some fly-by-night
As I attempt to keep my feet
There's not a clearness of a sight
That I could hope to meet.

No this is how the story goes
Much like the faith I hold
And I can't ask the one who knows
Since in that fog has rolled.

4-14-2024 by Sagefairy

We the brave the open heart
Withstood while worlds fell apart
Though death beckoned a time or two
With God’s help, we made it through.

Some did choose to leave the scene
That just isn’t in our genes
We stayed behind for mission’s sake
And became alive, awake.

Perhaps we sleep-walked prior times
Maybe committed love-dark crimes
Maybe childish thoughts drove us
Much too selfish. Too much fuss.

But here we stand on earth today
On a mission, so we stay
To linger here, we know not why
The forefront of our skills apply.

We’d need more lifetimes, two or three
To do all, be all, while we’re free
No more laments, no more whine
Now it is our time to shine!

4/13/2024
Sagefairy

If I can't put my mind at ease
By presence known or yet perceived
Then I shall use that power of prayer
In active ways, increase my flare.

For I still shine so brightly yet
The person you won't soon forget
This shell was born of bitter years
Falls away as I shift gears.

I'm wheeling down my chosen road
As I'm shucking off the load
Of things that I have long amassed
What I shall do, I do with class.

Old habits I have chose to break
Destroy with every mornings wake
The more they're leaving me behind
The faster I shall gain my climb.

And lose all that which weighs me down
Ignoring all the ones who frown
Though I'm not in younger years
I am dancing in high gear.

Sagefairy (4/10/24)